Friday, 03 July 2009
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Frustration
I figured I need to stop stressing over things otherwise I'm going to die of a heartattack somewhere in my 20's. If there's anything that irks me most it's planning things. So much for wanting to go into PR =S.
I think a lot of it stems from the fact that I obsess over too many things...it's been a hard slog through the years trying to let go of caring so much about everything, or worrying about plans being in place. But how can I change that about myself? It totally irks me about the "tidak apa" attitude of some people and fine, it's great that you're so chilled about everything but you know, when you're trying to make an appointment with TNB for some stupid meeting that your senior wants you to arrange and it takes 2 weeks and continuing, that is NOT cool. Not cool at all. Kudos to people that have to face that everyday, I would have blown up a LONG time ago. Which probably shows how I need to learn to stop stressing and just let it be.
It's also hard to let criticism pass. Sometimes I feel that I hold on to too much at a time which often results in me almost losing my sanity coz it just keeps piling on until I'm snapping at everyone around me. Hopefully some exercise will help tomorrow, I really think I should take up a violent sport...like kickboxing...
I really do feel sometimes that I'm shackled by chains of my own making. Doubt, fear, questions continue to run over and over. Maybe I try to project a certain persona and yet I'm continually unsure of who I am.
Sometimes I put myself into others ppls POV to find some sort of common ground and understanding, but the downside to this is that I can't even find my own thoughts after it. It's troubling.
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